I Understand

Sometimes I struggle to find the hole for my earring. Now I know how some dudes feel when they struggle to find the hole 🤔

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From Now On,

Call me Goddess. 

Thank you

To Whoever Reads This,

Know, that I love you ❤️.

Lost

My mind has been foggy lately. There is so much going on in the world, it makes me restless. There is so much I want to do to help better people’s lives but I feel like that is impossible but I know it is possible. I have this voice inside of me that screams every time I witness an injustice but my mouth says nothing and I continue on with my day and tell myself “mind my own business, this has nothing to do with you.” But it does have something to do with me. I realized that I care about other people deeply enough to want to look out for them. In order to make energy a little less awkward, tense and aggressive and a bit more comfortable, productive and cohesive. I want “positive vibes only” lol. I want people to feel more like one unit (the human race) and less like war opponents. 

We are all made of the same cells, we may not be created equally but we are created uniquely. And instead of using what makes us different from one another to collaborate and create change, we simply ostracize each other. Let’s  focus on how alike we are and build on that feeling of understanding. I don’t believe any man/woman has the right to take the life of another man/woman because theirs can be taken just as easily. Therefore, we are all created equal. No matter religion, ethnicity, skin color, beliefs or sexual preference. People are so afraid of being themselves for fear that they will be treated negatively. That’s not what we are here for. We were created to grow, prosper and prepare the world for the next generation. We argue over the dumbest things so how could we focus long enough to fix bigger issues?!

There is so much hate in this world and the violence is nightmarish. I fear for the next generation because things have been bad in this world while I was growing up and I’ve only seen things are getting worse.  It scares me. And still, all I do is scream in my head about things I cannot accomplish. So I thought for a while about what I would tell the human race, if given the opportunity; and I came up with,”We are the top of the food chain,if things are going to change, it’s going to be up to US to get it done. No excuses.” And changing things for the better is something I know we CAN do.

P.S. I know I’ve been away for a long time but this is like my online journal that the world can see. I’m thankful to have such an outlet where I am exposed to so many and have no idea who you are but I appreciate you, whoever you are.

You Are Not Alone (Micheal Jackson voice)

I have this defense mechanism that I’ve used for as long as I can remember. I will have the desire to become close to someone, develop a relationship of some sort. Then my trust issues sink in and I start to doubt their sincerity. I know all is genuine on my end but the doubt I feel from their end is what makes me call it quits.

Sometimes I think I don’t need anymore people in my life. And sometimes I feel like I’m cheating myself out of an experience of meeting new people and experiencing new things. But I look at it as; I’d rather protect myself from the start, than feel like a sucker down the line.

You Can’t Help Who U Love

I had lunch with a friend today and she brought up Gay Marriage being legalized in the U.S. She talked about being against the decision (which I took as misunderstanding on her part,) and she stated that this was a sign the world was going to end. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not sure just how serious she was… but to say things like that, kidding or not; IS NOT COOL. You can not relate to something, you know nothing about. You can’t offer your input on anything without experiencing it yourself. If you are heterosexual, does that mean you should be treated differently than homosexuals, bisexuals or transgender individuals?!?!? If you answered yes to this question, you’re wrong. That a form of segregation, which we did away with long ago! We are all human and should all be treated equally. If you have any questions or concerns about the LGBTQ community, I suggest you become educated because there can be no progress with ignorance. We all deserve the right to be miserable in holy matrimony. And if you don’t like it, Oh Well!

iPhone Problems 😩

If I have so much reception, that spinning circle should not be on my screen for more than 60 seconds.image

The moment I start to pray I find a charger soon.                            IMG_4675

My Natural Hair Journey

As you guys know from my previous post, “I love my hair, IDC IDC,” I have stopped relaxing my hair. I am finally beginning to learn how to treat and style my transitioning hair. (YouTube has been a huge help!) Yesterday, I decided to take a shot at Bantu Knots because my hair seemed untamable and here are my results this am. I must say, I’m happy and am excited to learn new ways to treat and style my natural hair.

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Damn Shame

When it comes to a romantic relationship, I’ve learned; everything my significant other was willing to do to have me, usually isn’t what they are willing to continue doing to keep me.

I Love My Hair, idc idc

Ever since I was about 6, I have had my hair relaxed. I can’t blame my mom because I don’t like to deal with my hair when it’s wet either. It’s just too much.

Until recently, I have relaxed my hair every 3-4 months. I was due for a relaxer about 6 months ago and my hair stylist refused to do it. She told me that my hair did not need to be relaxed and I shouldn’t damage my hair with such chemicals. I figured, she’s a licensed hair stylist, she might be right. So I took her advice and decided to transition to my natural hair texture. I must admit, it’s going to take some getting used to. There’s no more smooth edges and that’s been my biggest insecurity. But who needs smooth edges?!? My hair is a lot thicker and I’m excited to see how it turns out. Point is, this is MY hair and I love it. I don’t care if nobody else likes it, it’s mine :p