I love a Boss

🥰

Today my therapist told me…

Nobody owes me anything.

She a real one 🙏🏽

Life lessons.

Some people are full of love & light and some people are full of shit

A must see 👀

As someone who was born and raised in the Bronx in the 80’s, this is what I grew up in. Sometimes I think it’s why I’m so rough, anxious, untrusting and doubtful of the government in this country. I used to look at other places around the world and I used to think, how could these people be in such positions of power?!? As I got older I began to see our country’s political and judicial systems as they were, an excuse to further their agendas while minorities went under.

Sometimes I wonder if it will ever change. If we will ever feel justice served, empathy and compassion from those who enforced segregation and judgement. They don’t care about us, they never have. I don’t want to lose hope but I’ve been seeing this happen for so long and it happens for so long before I was born. I have little doubt it will end before I die. This world is messed up and I hope things change because they should. My grandmother experienced racism, my mom experienced racism and now I’ve experienced racism. They things I’ve witnessed are despicable, where is the accountability for these people inflicting pain and trauma?! Will they ever take responsibility for their actions or will we continue to live together until the next time they feel like abusing and exploiting us as a people?!? I’m so tired. So many people don’t know the truth. The information is out there.

I’m convinced. 🙋🏻‍♀️

The internet is a just a place people can be their judgmental, arrogant, rude, inappropriate selves; without taking accountability for those actions.

🗣 Exterminate all the Brutes

Go watch this right now!!! THIS is history, the story they don’t teach us or don’t want us to know. I never understood where racism came from and who decided the hierarchy of human beings. This documentary explains in great detail, the history of this world and the birth of white supremacy. And how these white supremacists were encouraged by their governments and churches to divide and conquer.

🗣 There is NO SUPERIOR RACE.

HBO, you real for this one.

A message

If you have hate in your heart at any capacity for another human being, I will say this to you, We all bleed the same red blood 🩸

Period.

Will it come out tomorrow?!

Days without seeing the Sun, make me so depressed. Among other things.

🤔💭🙄

Companies are really capitalizing on Black History Month in 2021.

It better be genuine. Put that money into the Black Communities you are claiming to support. That is all.

I’m just sayin 🤷🏻‍♀️

I realize more & more every day;

I don’t fit in anywhere. I’m not sure how I feel about that. Sometimes it’s high and sometimes it’s real low.

TF?!?

I feel like nobody listens to me when I talk; so I just STAY quiet 🤫

Let’s not rule out…

2021 might be the deluxe version of 2020.

Some recognition.

Shout out to every pen pal I ever had.

I’m TIRED! (and I know I’m not the only one)

Someone once called me the “trunk of my family tree;” it meant that I was the foundation that balanced everyone in my family. I am The Fixer. With this title came great pride, optimism and pressure. I felt that if I could help everyone else with their stuff, I would feel fulfilled. That however, is not the case. It’s quiet the contrary; I feel drained, like I am not taking enough care of myself and as much as I give, I can’t catch a break. I try to stay positive and see the brighter side of things rather than focus on anything negative. So I thought to myself, “what do I need to feel better?”

Mercy is what I need. I am a strong, smart, independent and I usually will ask for help when I need it. At this point, I need support; emotional and metal support. This blog is sort of like therapy for me, I can be who I am and feel free in doing so without feeling judged. I have a tendency to let things build up in me and then I explode. At the same time, I don’t like to talk about these things with the people I am close with because I don’t want them to worry about me. This is something that many people I know, do. Life is tough enough, I don’t want to burden others with my shit! That leaves me looking for an outlet to express myself and lately, the things that have been going on in this world have me feeling down. But I remind myself to be grateful for who & what I do have in my life. And when you give love, you get love ❤️

As down as I feel, I still have to drive to care for and nurture my fellow man. And the things that I am witnessing right now have me hurting. Injustice, lack of compassion, lack of empathy, lack of understanding, lack of knowledge, it’s all overwhelming.

So as someone, somewhere, going through something; as you read this just know, everything is going to be alright. Things will get better. Someone, somewhere cares about you. You are special, you are important, you are loved. Sending you SO much love xo