Someone once called me the “trunk of my family tree;” it meant that I was the foundation that balanced everyone in my family. I am The Fixer. With this title came great pride, optimism and pressure. I felt that if I could help everyone else with their stuff, I would feel fulfilled. That however, is not the case. It’s quiet the contrary; I feel drained, like I am not taking enough care of myself and as much as I give, I can’t catch a break. I try to stay positive and see the brighter side of things rather than focus on anything negative. So I thought to myself, “what do I need to feel better?”
Mercy is what I need. I am a strong, smart, independent and I usually will ask for help when I need it. At this point, I need support; emotional and metal support. This blog is sort of like therapy for me, I can be who I am and feel free in doing so without feeling judged. I have a tendency to let things build up in me and then I explode. At the same time, I don’t like to talk about these things with the people I am close with because I don’t want them to worry about me. This is something that many people I know, do. Life is tough enough, I don’t want to burden others with my shit! That leaves me looking for an outlet to express myself and lately, the things that have been going on in this world have me feeling down. But I remind myself to be grateful for who & what I do have in my life. And when you give love, you get love ❤️
As down as I feel, I still have to drive to care for and nurture my fellow man. And the things that I am witnessing right now have me hurting. Injustice, lack of compassion, lack of empathy, lack of understanding, lack of knowledge, it’s all overwhelming.
So as someone, somewhere, going through something; as you read this just know, everything is going to be alright. Things will get better. Someone, somewhere cares about you. You are special, you are important, you are loved. Sending you SO much love xo
I was at the doctor the other day, getting the birth control implant and the doctor told me she was happy that I was with her in the fight against over populating the planet. Now, when I decided to get the implant, it was solely for selfish purposes but as the doctor continued to talk, I thought of myself as a crusader! She went on to say how selfish the human species is. She said,” humans think they’re the only ones that matter on this earth.” I thought she was a bit crazy but it got me to thinking, she’s absolutely right.
We destroy our planet, its wildlife and anything else we want to, just because we can. There are not enough people concerned about global warming, animal species that have or are becoming extinct and we kill each other without thinking twice about it. It began to make me feel sad but that sadness quickly turned to hope. Without hope all we are left with is apathy; an empty feeling that nothing can be done to improve our circumstances. But that is totally incorrect, there is plenty to be done to improve our environment and quality of life. All we need to do is care about each other and the species we share this planet with as well as the planet we all share.
With the short conversation the doctor and I had, I was compelled to do something to get the word out and get people to become conscious of these issues. I know some people are going to read this and they won’t think twice about what they’ve read but this post is for those who are going to read it and feel something. A feeling that will drive them to have conversations and think critically about the issues we are facing today. All I ask is, if you don’t care about yourself or your generation; care about future generations. Our children and their children; would you want them to suffer the consequences of our actions or lack there of?
The times we’re in, people are overly passionate about what celebs are doing, what new clothes, shoes and bags come out or how to gain a following but nobody really talks about or addresses issues that really matter and are effecting our lives. Take a second to look outside of yourself or your world and look at us as family. I know it sounds corny but it’s all I’ve got right now to help you understand what I mean.
This post is to help start a conversation, which I’m hoping will lead to action, which will then lead to a movement. It’s up to us to do something about these issues and find some type of solution. If not for us, for future generations.