Means one of two things; you’re petty or you’re a coward. 😭😂
In order for me to accept your apology, it has to include some variation of one of the following words:
Sorry, Regret, Remorse, Apologize.
I looked out of the window, onto a construction site and saw a man praying. I was so surprised, intrigued, proud and compelled. My first thought was, “why is this man kneeling on the dirty ground?” I then realized his shoes were off and he was praying. I became overwhelmed with emotion, noting that it was amazing to see the faith of a human being demonstrated in such a dedicated way. Amongst all the debris, he simply chose a spot to pray, and did so in the most eloquent way. It was beautiful. FAITH is beautiful, no matter the one you choose.
It has somehow become acceptable in society to be rude & immoral. It has some sort of an intriguing effect on people.
I was brought up to be kind and respectful to others. Watching humans treat each other unjust makes me angry and confused. Listening to the pointless arguments and bigotry is disappointing.
We need to do better because things are progressively getting worse.
Peace ☮️ & Love 💟
Let me start by saying, I do not share my personal business with anyone. It’s nothing personal, it’s just I’ve learned from past experiences that sharing personal your personal business will get you judged, be held against you and/or make your personal business the topic of others conversation. All of these things have happened to me before and made me come to the conclusion that: I just don’t trust people!
That being said, people often have no idea what gripes I’m dealing with in my life. I am the type of person to let you unload all your mess on me and I just listen. I DO NOT repeat what I’m told so it all just accumulates inside of my chest and mind. Lately, I’ve been having a few people dump their mess on me and I’m feeling quite overwhelmed. I’m feeling like a huge pile of 💩. I listen to people’s drama and problems and talk with them about how to alleviate their issues but mine stay in the dark, under a cover in the back of my mind. Slowly, my anger and anxiety have grown and I think I’ve reached a point where I need to cut myself off from these people and handle my own issues.
A part of me feels guilty for feeling this way. Abandoning the people who depend on me as a listening ear and selfishly handling things for myself as they continue in their woes. I feel a sense of responsibility for other human beings and their well being. I’m not sure if that makes me a saint or a sucker.
Some are overwhelmed by my energy 🤷🏻♀️ I’m clearly not for everyone. And I’m okay with that.
The only criticism I’m willing to accept, is constructive. Anything else, you can keep to yourself.
So, yesterday the United States of America announced that Donald Trump would be the 45th President. I was in shock because I thought his racist remarks (since the beginning of his campaign,) shady political connects outside of the US and most recently his sexist ways being brought to light; I never imagined that my country, that I am so proud to be a citizen, would elect a person with such behavior into the White House. Let me say, this election was a despicable. I was not happy with the choice of the candidates and so it started out bad! I figured along the way, their both liars on some level. A liar is a liar is a liar. I did think Hilary seemed more manipulative and discrete regarding her indiscretions. But at least she has a background in working in the US Government for YEARS. It’s like you interview two candidates for a position, you don’t like either but you have to pick one. Your best bet would be to pick the candidate that has experience and not the candidate who knows nothing about the business or how it’s run and has already violated multiple standards you have for the employees that are already employed!!!
To the people that didn’t vote, it is your civil duty to vote. (That is all)
I could say the election is BS and the President it chosen by a small group of people we don’t know about (who the hell knows.) But the 2016 Presidential Election will go down as one of the most shameful events I will have witnessed in my lifetime.
Like I said, I was in a complete shock when I read that Donald Trump would be our next president. But soon after I felt sad and defeated, I took a sedative and I realized that none of this is in my control and I have to let go of the anger and pain. I have to accept the outcome of the election and all I can do now is see what this man can do for our country or better yet, what can the people of this country do for our future.
I’ve been going through something effecting me deeply lately and I wanted to share.Whenever I write my thoughts down and I’m in my feelings, I always feel like a weight has been lifted afterward.
I have no idea what changed in my body in July 2016 but it has resulted in me having a continuous breakout of hormonal acne. Let me say, I did suffer from acne as a teen and young adult but nothing this bad. My face has developed red bumps on my cheeks, jawline and most recently, my forehead. I went to a dermatologist for about 2 years before this and had visited her any time I had a skin issue. So of course, I made an appointment! [August 11]I see her, she gives me some creams and pills and tells me to use them and com back in a month (my skin is so bad, we discussed Accutane and I was registered by her, on that day.) I walk out of there with some sort of hope that when I come back next month, I’ll be given a strong medication to rid me of my “face demons.” My face got worse :/. I must confess, I’m a picker. There’s something satisfying about extracting whatever nasty stuff is in your skin.
Anyway (rolls eyes,) I go back to the Dr. [September 12] and she tells me my insurance won’t approve the medication just yet and I need to try another drug, not as strong, to see if it will resolve my issue. I broke down crying!!! I’m embarrassed to say it but I couldn’t hold it in, I felt like she was stealing all my hope in that moment. So, I sobbed and she was kind enough to make an appointment for me to go back next month and I walked out with my head hanging.
When I calmed down I thought to myself, “Why is this bothering me so much?! Why am I so vain?!” I am thankful for being alive and healthy another day but this huge insecurity is overshadowing that and clouding up my thoughts. It’s hard for me to appreciate the good cause the bad is pissing me off so much, I feel like I gotta handle that first. And I admire how smooth and clear everyone else’s skin is.Smh This stuff on my face has taken over my life. I don’t like to go out because I feel like people are staring at my face, people who do know me blatantly ask me “wtf is going on with your face?” and I literally have no idea what to say. I try not to wear makeup so my skin can breath and heal and I’m going into meetings/trainings for work, meeting new people with my face like this. This shit SUCKS!
A part of me feels guilty for being so vain. But this has definitely been a humbling experience. And once my skin is clear, I will never take it for granted. And I am going to stop picking, stop obsessing and stop worrying about these imperfections and start to recognize and embrace the traits I do like about myself.
I also feel disgusted with how much looks matter to me. I realize I’m still the same person now, I’ve always been and all this is, is a physical attribute I don’t appreciate lol.But it’s out of my control. All I’m saying is I need to start treating everyone equally, no matter what looks may perceive. I plan on being kind to everyone and staying positive because, as the NYC MTA reminds me,”Courtesy is contagious.”
My mind has been foggy lately. There is so much going on in the world, it makes me restless. There is so much I want to do to help better people’s lives but I feel like that is impossible but I know it is possible. I have this voice inside of me that screams every time I witness an injustice but my mouth says nothing and I continue on with my day and tell myself “mind my own business, this has nothing to do with you.” But it does have something to do with me. I realized that I care about other people deeply enough to want to look out for them. In order to make energy a little less awkward, tense and aggressive and a bit more comfortable, productive and cohesive. I want “positive vibes only” lol. I want people to feel more like one unit (the human race) and less like war opponents.
We are all made of the same cells, we may not be created equally but we are created uniquely. And instead of using what makes us different from one another to collaborate and create change, we simply ostracize each other. Let’s focus on how alike we are and build on that feeling of understanding. I don’t believe any man/woman has the right to take the life of another man/woman because theirs can be taken just as easily. Therefore, we are all created equal. No matter religion, ethnicity, skin color, beliefs or sexual preference. People are so afraid of being themselves for fear that they will be treated negatively. That’s not what we are here for. We were created to grow, prosper and prepare the world for the next generation. We argue over the dumbest things so how could we focus long enough to fix bigger issues?!
There is so much hate in this world and the violence is nightmarish. I fear for the next generation because things have been bad in this world while I was growing up and I’ve only seen things are getting worse. It scares me. And still, all I do is scream in my head about things I cannot accomplish. So I thought for a while about what I would tell the human race, if given the opportunity; and I came up with,”We are the top of the food chain,if things are going to change, it’s going to be up to US to get it done. No excuses.” And changing things for the better is something I know we CAN do.
P.S. I know I’ve been away for a long time but this is like my online journal that the world can see. I’m thankful to have such an outlet where I am exposed to so many and have no idea who you are but I appreciate you, whoever you are.
If you can’t control yourself, how can you have control over anything else in your life.
People like to blame their mistakes on others because it makes the shame tolerable.
I was at the doctor the other day, getting the birth control implant and the doctor told me she was happy that I was with her in the fight against over populating the planet. Now, when I decided to get the implant, it was solely for selfish purposes but as the doctor continued to talk, I thought of myself as a crusader! She went on to say how selfish the human species is. She said,” humans think they’re the only ones that matter on this earth.” I thought she was a bit crazy but it got me to thinking, she’s absolutely right.
We destroy our planet, its wildlife and anything else we want to, just because we can. There are not enough people concerned about global warming, animal species that have or are becoming extinct and we kill each other without thinking twice about it. It began to make me feel sad but that sadness quickly turned to hope. Without hope all we are left with is apathy; an empty feeling that nothing can be done to improve our circumstances. But that is totally incorrect, there is plenty to be done to improve our environment and quality of life. All we need to do is care about each other and the species we share this planet with as well as the planet we all share.
With the short conversation the doctor and I had, I was compelled to do something to get the word out and get people to become conscious of these issues. I know some people are going to read this and they won’t think twice about what they’ve read but this post is for those who are going to read it and feel something. A feeling that will drive them to have conversations and think critically about the issues we are facing today. All I ask is, if you don’t care about yourself or your generation; care about future generations. Our children and their children; would you want them to suffer the consequences of our actions or lack there of?
The times we’re in, people are overly passionate about what celebs are doing, what new clothes, shoes and bags come out or how to gain a following but nobody really talks about or addresses issues that really matter and are effecting our lives. Take a second to look outside of yourself or your world and look at us as family. I know it sounds corny but it’s all I’ve got right now to help you understand what I mean.
This post is to help start a conversation, which I’m hoping will lead to action, which will then lead to a movement. It’s up to us to do something about these issues and find some type of solution. If not for us, for future generations.
If you take pictures with jewelry, money or drugs; you’re obviously not accustomed to having any of those things in your possession on a regular basis. Stop it ✋🏽